 Over the past two years, it has been difficult for me to share my experience when I feel unwell and hopeless. I continue to share my experience to raise awareness and encourage compassion for those suffering with mental illness. On March 23, 2020, I entered treatment for an eating disorder, depression, anxiety and PTSD exacerbated by the pandemic and the stalking I experienced for over 11 years. On June 30, 2020, I left treatment too soon because I couldn’t afford to continue. On March 15, 2021, I re-entered treatment for an eating disorder, depression, anxiety and PTSD exacerbated by another stalking incident. On October 1, 2021, I lost my job of nearly 20 years because the organization could no longer hold my position while I was on medical leave. On March 15, 2022, I remain heartbroken that I can't return to the position that was meaningful to me. While this has been a challenging year of treatment and transitions, I am grateful for the support I've received and continue to receive from family, friends, and people who care. Thank you to Ani DiFranco for "Revolutionary Love" - a song I listen to whenever I need inspiration to continue on my road of recovery. Revolutionary Love I will tend my anger I will tend my grief I will achieve safety I will find relief I'll show myself mercy I'll show myself respect Yes, and I'll decide when I'm ready To forgive but not forget And I will ask you, I'll ask you questions And I will try, try to understand And if you give me your story I will hold it in my hands Yeah, I will bring the love (the love, the love) The revolutionary love (the love, the love) I will bring the love (the love, the love) The revolutionary love (the love, the love) I will bring the love (the love, the love) The revolutionary love (the love, the love) The revolutionary love (Revolution) (Revolution) (Revolution) And even if you hurt me I will not shut down No, you can't make me hate you And carry that hate around Yeah, I will see no stranger Only parts of myself I don't yet know Yes, and I'll see right through evil To a wound, too scared to show Yeah, I have the power to stay open Oh, I have the power to be The one that I've been waiting for The one who sets me free Yeah, I can bring the love (the love, the love) The revolutionary love (the love, the love) I can bring the love (the love, the love) The revolutionary love (the love, the love) I can bring the love (the love, the love) The revolutionary love (the love, the love) The revolutionary love (Revolution) (Revolution) (Revolution) Oh, well I will tend my anger Yes, I will tend my grief I will achieve safety Yeah, I will find relief Yeah, I'll show myself mercy I will show myself respect Yes, and I'll decide when I'm ready To forgive but not forget And I'll ask you, ask you questions And I will try, try to understand And if you give me your story I will hold it in my hands And I will bring the love (the love, the love) The revolutionary love (the love, the love) I will bring the love (the love, the love) The revolutionary love (the love, the love) Yes, I will bring the love (the love, the love) The revolutionary love (the love, the love) The revolutionary love Yes, I could bring the love (the love, the love) The revolutionary love (the love, the love) I will bring the love (the love, the love) The revolutionary love (the love, the love) I can bring the love (the love, the love) The revolutionary love (the love, the love) The revolutionary love
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